It would be cool if you're from Holland, then i know that i'm not the only one here who loves Michael

i went up to the stables today and the girl wasnt there. thank goodness! and thanks for ur tips, next time she is being mean i am DEFINITELY saying that!

i found the coolest things on youtube! type in "michael jackson's most funniest moments" and there is part 1, 2 and 3. they are SO FUNNY!! haha. michael is adorable, watching it makes me want to be with him SOO bad. i wish he was my best friend, or my dad... or my HUSBAND *sighs longingly*. and he has the cutest laugh and smile. and hes so funny!! aww i love him!! haha. u HAV to watch it! no matter how sad or angry i am it always makes me smile.

let me no ur project goes. im sure they will believe u. a few people in my class didnt believe he really had vitiligo but i found some pics that proved it and then they shut up about him! lol.

and u no the horse that used to crash me into trees? well hes improved lots and i am taking him to a show on wednesday i hope it all goes ok - but bcos he hasnt been ridden for very long he will probably go crazy! ahh! lol.

much love xx

hey. im sorry to hear about ur dad... thats awful i no how u feel about getting really down when people ignore u and dont talk to u or say nasty things. u no that girl i told u about at the stables, the one whos always having a go at me?

shes got me really down lately. im not very good at sticking up for myself and shes saying all sorts of things about my horse and me and hows shes so much better than i'll ever be. it makes me feel worthless...

but i hope u feel better soon and i'll always be here for u

and thats so cool how ur doing a michael project at school i did that this year too!! haha. i loved it. i even did extra homework and my poster was HUGE compared to everyone elses! haha i got the best mark too!! yay for michael!

and now im officially on holidays!!! yay! im going up to the stables HEAPS now. except that girl's always up there. she takes the fun out of everything! ahh!

much love xo

Yer same. I luv wat Michael wears and also dresses god they r so awesome, but right now I've been buying HEAPS of jewelery I need some loafers Lolz coz Michael always wears them

YAY I just bought 6 MJ vids for mii ipod, for $20

'tough', not 'touch'. Sorry!

Exactly! Every time I get sad or want to cut myself, I think about Michael. I think about how he's had touch times, but came through it all, and how he wouldn't want me to be sad or cutting myself. What is it about Michael that keeps me from doing something that I'll regret later? Now and then, someone will make fun of Michael and I'll get so angry that I cut myself without even thinking about it, but then I get upset for doing it cuz I know I shouldn't. And, I don't cut myself with a razorblade on my wrists, by the way. I do it in a way that it doesn't bleed much, so it's not as bad, I guess. But, people still get upset when I do it cuz they say that it'll relocate to my wrists someday. I think that as long as I have Michael, I can survive.

And then, people ask me what I'd do if he died before me. I feel close to tears and ask them to stop talking. But, when they push, I say, "I don't know. Life wouldn't be worth living without Michael and the hope I have to meet him someday." They usually stop talking after that. Something about me saying that leaves them speechless, similar to how Michael leaves me speechless.

I'm doing really fine, just have had dinner with some friends from Hungary.I'm completely full...we ate traditional stuff...
Your friends will believe you if the believe in truth...
My oppinion is: if someone is believing & searching for the truth-truth will always succeed! I'm dancing since I saw him live on stage with 'Earth Song' and a Remix of 'Dangerous' during the "Wetten Dass"-Show here in Germany!Singing is really neccessary if you dance to Music!I'm always singing too, some friends sometimes make jokes of me when I start singing again, coz if I feel good, I wanna show it to everyone and than I start singing!Hihi :-)
So you are from the Netherlands?My uncle lived there too for over 35 years somewhere not far from Eindhoven....So actually we could write each other in dutch or german? :-D

I'm doing really fine, just have had dinner with some friends from Hungary.I'm completely full...we ate traditional stuff...
Your friends will believe you if the believe in truth...
My oppinion is: if someone is believing & searching for the truth-truth will always succeed! I'm dancing since I saw him live on stage with 'Earth Song' and a Remix of 'Dangerous' during the "Wetten Dass"-Show here in Germany!Singing is really neccessary if you dance to Music!I'm always singing too, some friends sometimes make jokes of me when I start singing again, coz if I feel good, I wanna show it to everyone and than I start singing!Hihi :-)
So you are from the Netherlands?My uncle lived there too for over 35 years somewhere not far from Eindhoven....So actually we could write each other in dutch or german? :-D

Wat do u mean "I think"?? lolz I'm great thanx

I that I am thankful for having accepted the invitation, now will be friends of faith and love to the Michael. Lucilia kisses of Brazil

When I was 10, I moved to a new school. The first year, everyone loved me cuz I was the new girl. But, the next year, all my friends left me and everyone made fun of me. I had already been suicidal at that point, cuz I remember telling a friend in grade 4 that I wanted to kill myself. Anyway, everyone made fun of me for everything and no one was there to stand up for me. They even started to hit me, with jump ropes and stuff like that. I was so upset. They convinced me that I was ugly and evil. After that year, I cut off all my long, Rapunzal-like hair, went emo, and started cutting myself. (Now I got those stupid scars. Grr!) Anyway, when everyone saw the new emo, depressed, suicidal Ciara, they loved me. I still hated myself and thought I was ugly. I wouldn't even look in the mirror, and I loved the sight of my own blood. (I'm one of those people who like pain, by the way.) I wanted to die. And I went to extreme leangths to feel pain, like cut myself with a compass from a math set at school. I wouldn't tell my family, though, so they just thought it was a kid thing, and didn't get any help for me. Anyway, I found Michael, and he made me happy. I actually felt love, and it shocked me. He pulled me from the darkness, as I like to put it. So, I'm a little better now. However, people make fun of me all the time for being a Michael Jackson fan. I have just learned to, basically, become a zombie. I practically can't hear anyone I don't want to anymore. And, I'm stronger. And, yes, I still want to cut myself a lot, especially when I'm angry or feel stupid for doing something... well, stupid. But, I don't anymore. I'm really much better. Just praying that no one notices my scars, cuz they'll easily guess what I did, or what I am, a real life freak. *grimace* Michael helps a lot. And so does his fans!

I'm sorry about your dad. I'm sure he's not dissappointed.

I'm sorry for the abnormaly long comment!