Doesn't matter for the long comment, i understand it. Michael keeps me alive, he always comes at the right moment: when i wanted to kill myself there were videos from him on tv, and suddenly i remembered that i still have a dream who has to come true, i want to meet Michael and maybe tell him my story. So when i want to kill myself i think of Michael, he saves me when i feel sad. today i didn't cut myself, i hope i won't do it ever again. I think you do the same right? Think of Michael.